heat and depression

everyone who expects something of me these days: SORRY, but please understand a little thing about me and the summer. (cw: depression, anxiety, heat, summer, allergy, mention of suicide)   i have been prone to react negatively to extensive heat for quite some time already, and it's becoming worse every year. since my body decided that it wants to deal with things by developing asthma and neurodermitis (also from birth i have a shit low pulse and blood pressure, except for when they're too high??), this combined very well with my already stress-induced anxiety, to form a new thing for me to deal with: a heat allergy. yes, that's a thing. you know that now. so not only did heat and a following undersupply of oxygen in the air already…
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New Year’s resolutions 2019

I know it’s kinda clichée, but I like to re-evaluate my life once at the end of the year and try to come up with a few things for the next year to better said life. Especially this year this has become a very important thing to do, since this was an important year for me and things GOT to change. I am at a passage in my life where I just have to do a lot of changes and it’s been really hard on me to prioritice which changes would have to happen and which are less important. This year I had to halt my long awaited freelance occupation because of a burnout in april and a forthcoming unability to work for the rest of the year. I am…
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